The Disney Destany - Part 2

Now that I've had time to cool down and think rational I better try and explain. OK so when I went to Disneyland With my best friend Jessica, her girlfriend Bethany, and Bethany's quiet sister Anna. They were going for Bethany's birthday and for Gay Days of Anaheim 2010. This was my opportunity to go somewhere I've wanted to go for years. I have been their many times before, just not in a while. Disneyland is a very magical place where anything is possible. Time seems to stop and the real world doesn't exist. Disneyland stands for fun and entertainment. Happy people all around including myself if only for a moment of my life.

In my heart I am learning everyday, new cultures, new destinies, the systems in which life works. I am also learning about myself, my heart, my soul, my spirit. But deep down I find that what I learn about myself, I could be judged for, disrespected for, and overall hated for. I live in a constant state of fear, of what others would think of me if they knew. What I want most out of life is LOVE and RESPECT from others. That's all I ask, it's not much and it's a lot at the same time. But holding in these things makes me hurt deep inside. I cry out of internal pain. Most nights I can't sleep because I have everything implanted in my mind. I sorta get used to the pain, but it changes so theirs no way I can ignore it. I hurt now because I'm scared I'll hurt in the future.

Many would say "Just man up and do what you gotta do" or "If their your true friends they'll understand." Well I've taken that "true friends" advice and it didn't work for me. And besides, my true friends like Jessica already know 99.9% about me and my personal life. Everyone ells only likes me because I'm the Michael Jackson Kid. I love what I do, I love being the Michael Jackson Kid because if I wasn't that I would honestly be nothing. A nobody again. I can't be a nobody, I would wither up and slowly and painfully die. Ya I write songs, I blog but who wants to read anything I like. You be the judge of how interesting I am.

Name - Robert Michael McGee

Age - 17

Likes - Singing, Dancing, Love, Friendship, The Furry Fandom (losing respect their), photography, videography, Creating...

Music - Michael Jackson, ABBA, Queen, Steam Powered Giraffe, Disco, Pop, Movie Soundtracks, Oldies, Classic Rock (like Ozzy) and, My Own.

Movies - Back To The Future, Titanic, Moonwalker, The Jackson's: An American Dream, Rent, Cats, The Chronicles of Narnia, The Phantom Of The Opera, Over the Hedge, Bolt, Grease, Star Wars, The Burbs, Mamma Mia...

Television - Desperate Housewives, Xena: Warrior Princess, Roseanne, The Simpsons, The Cleveland Show, Family Guy, Degrassi: The Boiling Point, I Love Lucy, Three's Company...

Hobbies - Writing Songs, Singing, Dancing, Maintaining a YouTube Account, My Daily Blog, Tropical Fish, Fashion...

Views - NO Smoking, Drinking, or Doing Drugs, NO Violence, all people should be equal, life will always work out in the end, anything is possible...

Their are two options. I keep my secrets and hurt from fear, or I tell everyone and then hurt from discrimination. Either way I'm screwed. I want to be happy, but the chances are slim to nothing. Hope is DEAD, Dreams are DYING. Actually if you readers are paying attention you probably already know what that secret is. In which case I'm mortified.