A New Purpose

I find myself searching for a purpose, a meaning in life. I'm lost again looking for answers and I don't know were to start. All the values and opinions I've created I now question. My entire operating system I use were I repress everything, maybe I'm wrong? That leaves the question, who am I? I need guide lines, I always have. If not to follow then to rebel against.

I just set around and nothing all day, I need something to do, something constructive. I guess maybe I should try for a job. I can't say I'm not scared of the commitment and responsibility. It's not like school were if you don't wanna go you skip a day. I also don't know what i'm capable of being able to do. I'm kind of lazy.

Personal projects are important to me too. I need to start dancing again, I haven't since summer started. I started doing the rhinestone thing again on my clothes. I still can't date yet, I'm waiting for someone special. My music is another option.

Haircut Adventure

Today I decided to show off my new haircut by going shopping. I put on my new tail and shiny vest to add to the attention grabbing. I got dropped off in the parking lot. I looked in Ross, Dollar Tree, and Wall Mart but found nothing I wanted to buy.I walked home through Mast Park. I turned some heads which was the point anyway...

Comic Con Pictures 2011

Bed Knobs and Broom Sticks

The bed has been assembled! The day began when Mom and I went to pick up a new bed room set to replace my old one. We arrived and found that the pieces looked like the furniture in my room already. Same general style and close tint. We brought all the furniture over to my house and set it in the garage. I didn't end up using the bed they gave me, Michael is... I get everything ells though. I cleaned the bed and moved the pieces into my room. Construction took 40 minutes alone. I used the drill again. I'm now resting thinking about cutting my hair.

Wilfred

Today I pretty much woke up about 3:00 and laid around all day. I discovered a show called Wilfred. It's about a man who sees a dog as a man in a dog suit. The dog's name is Wilfred and he always gets the human guy in trouble. I also got the urge to clean my room so I started doing that. I want a bed in there tomorrow. Regardless of what bed it is. My old king or a new Queen. There is the cabinets that go with the queen. Nothing ells special today, Pics from Comic Con soon.

Tales of The Comic Con part Two

Day 1:

Thursday Bethany and I arrived in the early morning at the San Diego Convention Center to pick up our volunteer badges and start our day at Comic Con 2011! I expected it would be better then last year. Comic Con seems to get better as you get to know it better. I had a set agenda, kinda... I had two items I HAD to buy before comic con ended; A new tail, one that actually resembled one of a wolf and a Deathnote. I got them both right away. I spent allot of time with Bethany, though at one point I found myself on my own walking along exploring booths hoping to find Kim or Josh when out of the blue it appeared! A replica in every detail of the DeLorean from Back to the Future part 1.

I went into a happy shock, then took a million pictures. I been doing this gasp thing lately at random stuff I like, I did that too. After that I met up with Bethany to volunteer. Luckily the job we got sent to didn't need us so we didn't have to work. We went to South Park conveniently located across the street. After that Bethany, Kristelle, and I watched some weird anime from the 80's called Dirty Pair. I took the trolley home that night with Jessica, Alex, and Bethany.

Day 2:

The big shocker of day two is when Chewbacca walked by. Not the real one but an Impersonator... a good one. Then I saw Mark Hammel. Discovered my friends Dominic and Isabella who I wandered off with, leaving Jessica, Alex, and Bethany. I wound up at a My Little Pony meet up. Let's just say its not my thing. I found a store called Shrine Underground Fashion and every single one of there outfits was amazing. ( www.SHRINESTORE.com ) I saw some fur-suiters which made me happy. Lots of people with ears and tails though. You never can tell if those people are Furries though... Also, no meet up this year was the most tragic news of all, I suppose everything has complications... The meet in the hotel is my favorite part, not this year. Bethany and I worked in a raffle thing at the Marriott Hotel.

Day 3: This is the day I found something that beat out the replica DeLorean from Thursday... One of the real DeLoreans used in Back to the Future part 3 along with many other props used in the movies. I actually got to sit in the car and take pictures in it. The picture above is me in the car. I also met Billy Zane, who was in Titanic and Back to the Future. Bethany entered a South Park character contest and made it to round two. We once again got out of volunteering when they didn't need us. I found a fur I knew from the meet ups so Bethany and I guided him around the crowds. We ended up back at the real DeLorean ware he took a picture with it. His name is Chance, did I mention that he is a dragon. I ended the day hanging out with Kim. Then I took the trolley home alone for the first time.

Day 4:

Today went by rather fast I hung out with Bethany, got out of volunteering again, and met up with Kim and Josh for another short time together. Every time I found Josh our time would be short... well except Sea Port Village on Saturday. I came home alone and depressed on the trolley. That famous Comic Con Depression. I'm OK now though. Went by tooooooooo fast...

Overall:

In general I think I like Comic Con because I can be me, well more of the real me then usual. I put on the pin that I hide from reality which I now have 3 of, put on my tail and just am very out going. I also have a new deep voice I can talk in. I call it my the spine voice. I wish I could be Bobby McGee all the time instead of being the lovable Bobby Wolfey I created to give people what they want...

Anticipating Comic Con?

So today I wait for tomorrow to arrive. Actually I didn't anticipate and long for Comic Con this year as usual. Actually I've been busier then ever. Mom keeps griping at me "get a job." I really in all honesty don't want to but I will If I have to I guess I'll try. Mom doesn't understand how hard it will be without a high school diploma. Anyhow I have $130 for the con which I will most likely blow because I'm a compulsive buyer in most cases. Unless I feel what i'm buying is not necessary... like food. I'm defiantly buying a new tail, a big one. YAY MJ all 4 days.

Digging A Hole

So today I woke up and went to the bay with the scouts. I thought yay something to do. While their my brother Sean and his friend Gavin dug a giant hole about 4.5 feet deep in the sand. I ducked out to go swing on the swings. I love them swings. I returned, the hole was deeper. About the time we had to leave was when some one told us it's a hazard... So we put a piece of plywood over it and left.

I got home to a box of picture frames that I've desperately needed for my room. While I'm cleaning it i'm also hanging up pictures. Also I have realized that i'm a hoarder and i'm tired of being in denial about it. Along with a few other things. So tonight I randomly decided that I myself was going to put up a shelf. So I got everything I needed including the drill which I never used before. I drilled the wrong size holes because mom said the right size bit was in it. I was trying to drill a hole in the shelf for ten minutes, thinking to myself, "damn this is hard wood!" Then I realized that the drill was in reverse... Angered by the drill I hammered the shelf to the wall only to have it not hold. I looked for the correct drill bit for a long time but failed to find it. I'm not attempting this shelf again...

I dyed my hair tonight in preparation for comic con. I must look perfect.... Also I may wanna impress someone. Well that's that...for tonight anyhow...

I guess this is the world of blogging 2

I guess this is the world of blogging

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Hello everyone, my name is Bobby McGee. This is my year old blog thingy! I'm glad I got to blog about all the crazy random things in my mind and all the emotions and feelings I keep hidden deep inside me.

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There are many many more things about me, that make up my thoughts, actions, decisions, hopes, dreams, reactons, and other processes in my mind, heart, and soul. I think of myself and everyone ells as complex people striving to be wanted and loved. People wanting to accomplish great things and be remembered long after their gon. People who look to be difforent to stand out over other people. People are surely complex, and thats what makes life livable.

I do all I can to be as difforent and excentric as I can be. If you know me you can see this in my interests, the way I act, and even my clothes! I try to think difforent as well. It's my way of actualy getting noticed.

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All I really want to do is help others. let them know that their not alone in this ununderstanding world. Let them know that they are loved, wanted, and needed. Also to try and help as best as I can to understand and fix their problom. So if you have a problom or feel depressed or unloved talk to me...please!

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It's all out of love, love I got for the people of the world, because without love we would have nothing.

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It's been a damn interesting year! My idea last night was to put the blog to rest for once and for all. You know me, I hate change. Hopefully their will be less drama this time around. The purpose of the blog was that it gave me someone to vent to, someone to listen. It has helped. Not to mentioned documented allot. I should start putting secret messages like the Beatles on their albums. Many more ideas that haven't come to me yet. I'm gonna write a poem to commemorate the first anniversary of my blog.

I'm very glad my blog lasted one whole year

A stepping stone, one will become many

May I have many more years of blogging success

Getting over the fact that I have only one follower

All my love and best of wishes

Yay! I cant believe its been a year

Three Worlds Collide (Part One)

Today was a good day. Three of my worlds came together. I have many different categories of friends that I call worlds. They consist of Old School, High School, Furry Fandom, Michael Jackson, Steam Powered Giraffe, and People Who Know Me But I Don't Know Them. Those are the main ones anyway, theirs defiantly more. The three that did come together were Old School, Furry Fandom, and Steam Powered Giraffe. Whoever said it's a small world was damn smart. It's also a little dangerous in it's own way.

Before I found my friends Kim and Josh I immediately went to find the panda gift shop that burned down last Monday. To my surprise their was no debris plus a new tented gift shop stood right on top of were the old one was. The zoo works fast. Honestly I wanted to see the debris... Fire fascinates me but it also terrifies me.

So I texted Kim twice wondering if they had arrived. With no reply I went on a search. I found them faster then I expected at one of the overpriced cafe's. We started out on our epic adventure across the land of the zoo. We saw 95% of all the animals. We had lots of fun joking around. I for a small amount of time was more myself then usual, if not completely. We rested on a bench and got to see David and Chris without makeup. We later saw Jon and Michael on stage.

Before long it was time to see Steam Powered Giraffe, playing every day until September 5th. Thus the third world colliding. SPG was great as usual. Kim was on a mission to meet and give each of them a hug. Her mission would eventually be accomplished. Michael hung out with us allot. Not many people know of Michael's hula hoop ninja skills. I can't help but feel Chris and David are mad at me. They avoided me....Maybe I'm just being paranoid. We went to McDonald's before finishing the night off at Kim's house.

Relations

First off, Mom you can't read this one.

I'm sorry I haven't had an entry in about half a month. To tell you the truth I haven't had much to talk about lately. Their are small things like Steam Powered Giraffe performing everyday at the zoo, and umm... Ya life's boring... The reason I'm returning is that I have something... Something big to talk about. The topic is relationships.

Relationships are something I know allot about from a watching point of view and nothing about from an inside point of view. Recently I realized this among other things, like the real reason why I haven't had a relation ship. Their is actually many reasons. It's allot clearer now. I've been saying "I just don't want to be in a relationship" for years now, It's time to face the facts.

One reason is because I've seen people, my friends in relationships. They call it love but it's just lust. I don't care how much they think it is love, but its not. 60% to 75% break up. Then the aftermath, long and painful. Doesn't matter the gender. Guys hurt as much as girls, they just don't show it as much. Maybe more through anger. I repress things all together so theirs no way I'd be able to go through it. I hear in the back of my mind, "It's better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all." I don't know who wrote it but it's counteracting my point.

Another reason is I kinda was in a relationship once but never really tried anything. It was a combination of being shy and something ells. I have had sex before, a few times with two others, separately of course. A funny fact, I've had sex but never cuddled or even kissed before. Sorry to sound gross. Kissing, cuddling, touching, and such are all to foreign to me. I don't know enough to be good at this. I'm trying to keep this appropriate, very uncomfortable writing about this stuff.

The third reason being that i'm not confident in the way I look. I have a friend who would say "do something about it instead of complaining" and I plan to. I need to not eat right before I go to sleep and exercise a bit. Don't know what to do about my other flaws though. Listed in this post... http://bobbywolfeymcgee.blogspot.com/2010/12/look-of-it.html I kinda just wanna be loved. I'm so obsessed that I look bad that I'm just not happy... I do feel I have a winning personality, im kind, accepting, loving, and easy lol. I don't boast about it because I know people hate people who constantly talk great about themselves. Also aside from my great personality is the fact that I may seem very boring to many many many people. Lets just say my interests are limited. Look at what I wrote on my Pounced profile for god sake...

I'm not sure what to say... I'm 18 and I live in Santee, California. I've been in the fandom for about four years. I was in a group called Fur-Now. I've been to Comic Con 2 years in a row going on 3. I'm out of High School. I'm very friendly, and sensitive, but also shy. I tend to friend everyone I meet. I conflict myself,I'm shy but I crave attention. I usualy get it, waring the outfits I do. I'm extremely OPEN MINDED. I don't smoke, drink, or do drugs, I don't have a problem with those who do, just so they respect I don't. I'm not really one for politics. I am working hard to be a Michael Jackson Impersonator. It's a huge part of my life. I write songs, dance, excel in photography, and make videos. I like to create and design. I don't really draw or paint though. I really enjoy making people laugh with my randomness. My goal is to spread the love. Feel Free to ask me ANYTHING. I don't yet have a fursuit but...someday. I'm usually broke and never have transportation but I get by...

Don't get me wrong, Michael Jackson is not the only interest/obsession I have...

Music: Michael Jackson, The Jacksons, The Jackson 5, Steam Powered Giraffe, The Beatles, The Bee Gee's, Abba, Queen, The Beach Boys, Wings, Shania Twain, Leann Rimes General Disco, Pop, Oldies, Movie Soundtracks, whatever seems funky to me...

Movies: Fantastic Mr. Fox, Over The Hedge, Song of the South, Back to the Future 1,2,3, Titanic (1997), The Burbs, Mouse Hunt, clue, The Producers, Mamma Mia, Rent, The Phantom of the Opera, The Money Pit, Narnia, The Wiz, Captain Eo, Michael Jackson's Ghost, Michael Jackson's This Is It, Michael Jackson Dangerous Tour, Michael Jackson Bad World Tour, Michael Jackson's HIStory World Tour, Moonwalker, The Jacksons: An American Dream, any Disney Movie, any Pixar movie, Psycho 1,2,3,4, The Birds, and Ghost Ship...

T.V. Shows: Desperate Housewives, Ghost Whisperer, Xena: Warrior Princess, Hercules: Legendary Journeys, Ghost Hunters, I Love Lucy, The Lucy Show, Here's Lucy, The Nanny, Roseanne, Married... With Children, All In The Family, The Simpsons, Futurama, Family Guy, The Cleveland Show, American Dad, The original Pokemon series and Johto, Death Note...

Games:

Computer: The Sims 2, The Movies, Desperate Housewives: The Game

PS2: The Simpsons Hit & Run, The Simpsons Road Rage, Champions of Norrath, Champions: Return to Arms, Baldur's Gate: Dark Alliance, Kingdom Hearts 1,2, Lego Star Wars, Gran Turismo 3, The Sims...

Game Cube: The Sims: Bustin' Out, Animal Crossing, Super Monkey Ball, Pokemon Colosseum, Pokemon Channel...

N64: Pokemon Snap, Pokemon Stadium 1,2, Banjo-Kazooie, Banjo-Tooie, Zelda: Ocarina of Time, Zelda: Majora's Mask, Super Mario 64, Paper Mario, Mario Party 2, Mario Kart, Xena: Talisman of Fate...

Gameboy: Pokemon Red, Pokemon Blue, Pokemon Yellow, Pokemon Gold, Pokemon Silver, Pokemon Crystal, Pokemon Trading Card Game, Pokemon Pinball, Pokemon Ruby, Pokemon Sapphire, Pokemon Fire Red, Pokemon Leaf Green...

D.S.: Pokemon Heart Gold, Pokemon Mystery Dungeon, Animal Crossing: Wild World, Super Mario 64 DS, Super Mario Bros., Over The Hedge, Zoo Tycoon DS...

Books: Mookwalk, Michael Jackson: The Magic, The Madness, The Mystery; The Michael Jackson Tapes, Narnia...

My Fursona Is a Timber Wolf named Moonwalker Wolfey. I think the unique characteristic of my fursona is that he is a Michael Jackson impersonator. He is designed around my school mascot Wolfey. I cant take credit for the creating. Maybe the personality, just not the body...lol. Moon looks as he does in the pictures. Of course, one is a picture of Wolfey and the other is my traced art, lol.

I'm adding to this slowly...

MY BLOG http://bobbywolfeymcgee.blogspot.com/ MY YOUTUBE http://www.youtube.com/user/bobbywolfey MY WEBSITE https://sites.google.com/site/themichaeljacksonkid/home

My Skype

bobbywolfey

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To wrap it up, I kinda long for a relationship but am scared to jump into one. How conflicting lol...