The Biggest Fear

As people do, I have allot of fears. I'm scared of many things, fire for example. Fear has allot of power behind it. It can prevent you from doing allot of great things. Their are simple fears like heights, tight spaces, and people. Their are complex fears like dying. I'm afraid to die, I'm pretty invincible though. My biggest fear is somebody I love dying. I'm 18 and I've gone through that 3 times with 3 people that were close to me. My dad died when I was 7, shot in the chest. Granny died when I was 16, she was sick for a long time. I was in her room with grandpa when we found her. I stayed strong and told grandpa to call the ambulance. I called mom and told her. Grandpa died last October. 3 times. 3/4 adults that raised me are dead. I've faced my fear 3 times and I'm still afraid. I can't even imagine life if mom died. I surly wouldn't be able to survive without her. Every day I'm terrified because it's just so unpredictable.