Childish

The last few days I've been anticipating the breakup of me and my mate. I've been over-stressed but It's no excuse for the way I acted tonight. I got really jealous and blew up. I threw two things. I through the biggest fit I've thrown in about five years. That resulted in me throwing my laptop across the room. My mate watched the whole thing from the other laptop. The one I'm using now. My normal laptop still works, just broke the fan. I'm not proud of what I did. I acted very childish. I'm a very childish person and as my mate said, I need to grow up. I don't know how to begin but I will. I'm actually sorta ashamed of my actions tonight. I want the world to know of the bad things I do. Everyone has got me pegged as someone i'm not. On a complete side note my standards are slowly dissolving away. Everything I ever learned is a lie conjured up by society and religion. Who can really say what's right and wrong. Not you. Not me. I'm thinking in a completely different cycle and you can think my mate for that. I am dealing with a war in my head. I can't wait for it to end, I'll be a completely different person.